Friday, December 11, 2009

Still missing

It's been almost a year since Pam-Maw passed away and I still miss her as if it just happened.

Christmas was her favorite time of the year. She loved to have her house decorated to the max. She also like to drive around and look at all the lights. It was one of her favorite things to do.

Since Pam-Maw live with Uncle M and Aunt D, Aunt D always did the decorations and the trees. She has decorated the house to the max this year including the front yard. It means more to me than she will ever know.

And while it saddens me that they have taken down Paw-Maw huge cherry wood bed and moved things around. It thrills me more that they have redesigned her space to make it their own. Their family/hang out room.

Uncle M and Aunt D had it painted and new curtains hung. Bought a new TV and coffee table. The have set up an area just to read and relax and another to watch TV or play games.

I know Pam-Maw is looking down and smiling. She wouldn't want them or us to turn her room into a shrine but rather some place that brings happiness and peace.

I miss you my sweet Pam-Maw! And I just know the Christmas lights in heaven put ours to shame!

1 comment:

Brooke said...

its so hard to celebration and have traditions when people are missing from those.

our Christmas drama at church this year actually dealt with that topic. the grandfather through the whole play is pouring two cups of coffee - one for him, and one for grandma who's passed on.

my grandfather died around christmas time (the 13th i think) so the grief was very fresh. my great-grandmother died around easter, so Christmas that year was hard because it was just like knocking the scab off.

okay so that was an ugly analogy, but as you know right now, its an ugly feeling :(