Friday, July 31, 2009

It hurts

Why is that your kids can say something some times that just hurts you to the core?

They don't realize it, well maybe they do, but I would like to think they don't.

Both of my boys said something to me yesterday that just plain ol' hurt.

And while R9 apologized, and R4 tried, It left me feeling sad.

When it was bed time, I tucked them in and said prayers.

And while the calling after me and Hubs commenced for the next 114 minutes, I never got up to go see what they needed or oblige them in one more kiss or hug.

I just didn't have it in me to get up and be fake.

Right now being a parent really stinks!

5 comments:

cfoxes said...

Sometimes we can just get so defeated, can't we? It's hard to be a parent. My son does that. I do that too, ignore, sit around and feel sorry for me because of something they said. But you have to just remember, no one is perfect and we need to figure out what they are actually saying or wanting. It's so hard.

The Charm House said...

You know... Sometimes the ones we love hurt us the most! I can always tell when my son has something that is on his shoulders.... HE takes it out on me! I have learned to let it fly pass me! Life is really tooo short for us to get upset about something that is said, usually that something said has nothing to do with us but a deeper feeling! You know they love you deeply and I know YOU, you really don't like wasting time being sad! I hope something wonderful happens today to make your day incredible! YOU my dear are a very special MOM!
Love you,
Yvette
Sad = Whit leaving today LOL What an awesome summer we have had!

McElroy Family Happenings said...

I had a bad mommy day yesterday, too. Maybe that will make you feel better.

Mara cried and said "NO" most of the afternoon after she got up from her nap. At one point we were both crying like crazy and not knowing what to do.

I think she had a bad case of cabin fever because going outside in this heat is too much for me in my pg state right now.

Anyway, I cried again this morning when I got her out of bed and felt badly all over again for the yesterday's yuckiness. I keep trying to tell myself that we will have bad days and will we get on each other's nerves.

Hope you have a good weekend. Your boys love you completely...they are just growing up and expressing themselves in their "safe zone"...which is sometimes not plesant for their "safe zone" cohabitants!

Lou Cinda said...

Oh those days are HARD! And it happens from time to time when they are grown too....they don't realize what they say can have the impact on us it does. They were probably just trying to get a reaction from you. I know they are sorry! You rock as a mom!!

Have a good weekend!

Lou Cinda :)

Life with Kaishon said...

Oh. I feel your pain. Sometimes that happens with Kaish. At the pool the other night he said, "I wish you were skinny like all the other Mom's" and I felt terrible. Really terrible. Later he said he was just kidding because we had been playing a game, and although, we were playing a game, I didn't see how that fat thing fit in there.... So, I am sorry you were hurt. Being a mom is one of the hardest jobs on the planet, isnt' it?