Monday, July 20, 2009

Gone

A few weeks ago R4 went to spend a week with the in-laws.

Now it's R9's turn.

He left Friday and will not be back until Thursday.

Then he will be home for two days and then leaves again for church camp.

This is his first year to go to church camp and he is so excited.

Me, I have mixed feelings. I want him to go but he will have just gotten home and the he will be gone again.

I want him to have a great time a camp, and I know he will, but my mama heart thinks of all the what ifs.

What if something happens and he needs me, what if looses his spending money, what if, what if, what if.

What if I turn all my worries over to God. What if I given them fully to him.

He has shown me some huge things in my life lately. And I know he can take my worries and calm them.

I know he will have R9 in the palm of his hand and watch over him.

But can this mama just hang on to His pinky finger and peer over the edge and watch too?


3 comments:

Brooke said...

its hard to just release things to Him isn't it?

i've had a couple of instances lately where i've just had to throw my hands up and say "its all You!" its actually quite refreshing.

but i only got there because they were things that i really couldn't do anything about.

Genny said...

Oh I loved this! "Hang onto His pinky finger..." So many times I've wanted to do this. It's hard to let go of control sometimes! :)

Life with Kaishon said...

You are so funny : )