Tuesday, March 15, 2016

It's Just Not The Same

It was my birthday a few days ago. Yep, I still have those, age usually does not bother me. This year I did pause for a brief moment and think to myself, dang! you are getting old. 

I received all the normal calls and text messages from family and friends but one was missing, my dad.

He always called me the day before and the day after my birthday and would sing to me, Happy Un-Birthday to you. And on the actual day he would call and sing Happy Birthday full blown with gusto in such a loud voice it made my ears hurt. I missed that this year. I have him singing to me on a voice mail but I could not bring myself to listen. The emptiness of him not being here weighed heavy on me and I just really wanted a semi happy day. 

I miss that man more than I ever thought possible. I keep telling myself time will lessen the hurt. But for this, time is moving so slowly. 

I am looking forward to the day when I am finally able to listen to that sweet sweet voice mail from my daddy and smile. 





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